Lectures can always help, don't get me wrong, but they always tend to make me over think and it's completely unnecessary! I understand the topic, and it's usually something I'm going through. It discusses the downside of things, stuff I have to be ready for. After this conversation it is where I begin to doubt in whatever is going on with my life.
I "was" on top of the world and still am sorta. But when it comes to reality checks for me, it makes me wonder what I might do wrong, instead of all that I can do that is right!
I know you have to keep one foot on the ground but when the other foot starts hesitating on what to do, you are at a loss. People begin to notice your fear and doubt and then they go away. You cannot unthink your thoughts. You cannot unhear the lecture. You are stuck until someone brings you out from the water rushing over you and drowning you. They won't save you unless you make it known that you need to be saved. And that is when you're too nervous to tell them. It's a vicious cycle of not knowing what to do and it taking over you.
I hate lectures.
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